2003-08-11-9:27 a.m.

It's been a long time since I've written. I think my last update was in May.

So I guess this is my summer flashback. Some things change, some stay the same, some for the worst, some for the best.

All in all I'm the same as I've always been. Still have the same sense of humor, same beliefs on life. The main difference in me now as opposed to say 2 years ago is I'm much more anti-social.

A lot has to do with me being out of work for 1 1/2 years, then swallowing my pride, and taking a job that is way below my personal expectations.

Life has a funny way of putting your ass in perspective. I value things a lot more now than I did. I value my family and my friends a lot more also. So the change has been good. I needed some humility after a whirlwind of extravagance. (For me, extravagance was like eating a steak instead of McDonalds, not like buying a Rolls Royce or anything, ha!)

The summer has been uneventful, I didn't go on any travels outside the state, didn't attend any major sporting events, didn't party until the sun came up. It's been a relative summer of contentment in just being.

It's a good change, I don't drink as much, I don't party as much, I don't spend money as much. Maybe I'm finally growing up. Men do take the longest to mature, I can attest to that. My philosophy has always been: "I don't suffer from 'The Peter Pan Syndrome'...mutha fucka, I AM PETER PAN!!!!"

I'm slowly learning, there are certain things and certain places where you actually DO and SHOULD act your age. That point of education is starting to pay off, as I succeed more at work and with strangers.

Of all this rant, I'm just happy I'm in love, have a beautiful son, a roof over my head, I'm healthy, I have a solid mind, a beautiful family, and the best friends in the world. All my friends, .....all ....my ....friends. Some I haven't talked to or chatted with in a long time, some I've never met, some I've only seen a few times. All my friends.

I love you all.

d.