2004-06-29-6:40 p.m.

It's been a rough ride the last couple of months. Trying to buy a house, the final disappointing news coming yesterday. I take solice in the fact I learned a lot, and next time I'll be more ready.

Work is work. I try hard, but I'm honestly getting worn down. Too many things to worry about all at the same time have bled into how much and how I accomplish my job.

Hopefully now it's all behind me and I can concentrate on the future.

We're hoping to hear good news on a rental tomorrow. It's a lot of money, but anymore, what isn't. It's a really nice place, and everyone is excited. I just pray it's not another big let down.

I've come to know new friends and I struggle to keep in touch with old ones. The year is half over and I feel like I'm 3 years older. My friends are 100 miles further, and my place in line gets slower and longer. Soon the summer will be over and I'll see Dimitri go back to school, and it will be the rush of winter and Christmas will be on top of me again.

It all goes too fast. Dana's here now, Brett will be coming soon, and I feel through the stress that's been swarming around us the past few weeks regarding the house, we've lost a lot of quality time. When they return home, I hope they realize I do the best I can for everyone, even though I am distant and reserved, I really do love them like I love Dimitri.

This is one of the few times I just write, but it's helping me pour out a few of the things in my heart that I need to get out. The few things that maybe I don't feel or want to put to anyone's ear.

d.

p.s. - 2 Marines.

1 I will say 'hello' to after 10 years of wondering how you have been. Get to town safe, we have a lot of catching up to do.

1 I say 'hello' to as you prepare to go overseas to do the job you are sworn to do.

To everyone:

We'll catch up, we always do.

love.