2005-11-24-6:41 p.m.

I've recently begun a new journey into what makes me tick. Without question *I* know, but 99% of the people around me don't. If all goes well, some of those people will find out a little, as I crack open the closet door.

I just found out, someone close to me is re-beginning his path. The same dead end road that I had to double back on about six years ago. I can't really offer up any advice or anything. It's a road he'll have to learn to manage with me as the passenger and not the driver. It's hard, it hurts, I cry, but that's just the way it has to be.

Six years ago I made a foolish mistake that still haunts me today. The road I had to travel to get to where I am was hard. "Two steps forward, one step back" should be my life mantra. But now, after six years I can honestly say I'm a better person. I still have plenty of flaws, I'm still recovering from a depressive state, I'm still biding my time, learning the ropes, every number of stair climbers you can throw in there. But, I'm me.

When this person gets to that point, I'll know, he'll know, and maybe once in a while I'll drive. Which will make a wonderful journey to share, because now that the closet door is ajar, Katie bar the door because I have 35 years of magic to unleash.

Magic I'm slowly finding, magic that I have to teach myself to conjour, every second of every hour of every day.